WATCHIE HAHAHA
insomnia attacked so i graffitied on facebook. LOL :))

wag ka na bumalik. kasi alam mo. mababaliw na naman ako. uulit lang yung nangyari dati. at ayoko na maulit yun. sa totoo lang. hindi naman bitter ako or something, pero kasi. iba yun e. dapat nga matuwa ka, kasi kung patuloy pa rin ako nasasaktan ibig sabihin totoo yung dati. di ba? kasi di mo naman makakalimutan yun agad. pakiramdam yun e. hindi yun parang pangalan na after ilang weeks e hindi mo na maalala. lalo na ganito. nakakailang buwan pa lang ba? di ba? tingin ko para mawala na completely yun e dapat mga taon muna ang lumipas.

salamat. wag mo muna ko guluhin. saka na. pag mapapatunayan ko na sa kanila, sa mga tao sa buhay mo, na hindi naman ako katulad ng iniisip nila. SIGE. next time na lang sir. ingat.

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hihihi ^_______^

i have a bad case of the ugly

ARGH. i don't feel pretty. no. my self-esteem is not the problem. it's the hormones! grabe ang breakout. i am not stressed and i do eat right, and i sleep right, and i am a very nice girl. really. nakakainis. :((

i just don't know what to do! must take things to my own hands! RAWR. hahaha
okaaaaay i might do something drastic. pero bahala na. enrollment may save me from this boredom. then again maybe not. hahaha

since i don't want to talk to anyone, and it's a pretty long way to go before my favorite film - Perfume; The Story of a Murderer - finishes downloading, i'll blog.

it's been awhile since i last posted. who reads this anyway? hahahaha but what the hell. i am bored. i will write.

YAY for the just concluded sem. I am officially a Clothing Technology student. and proud of it :) uh huh. made some really cool friends! and finally i felt close to my block. my block in engineeringg was BIG, like 70+ in a block? i never got the chance to know all of them. sadly. I love my CT block! oh yes. even though we're just 12! :P i love them. we may have differences in taste but we have the same passion for fashion. yay hahaha.

i am currently obsessing over Philippine History. culture in particular. i want to designs clothes inspired by Philippine culture. I think it's pretty cool :) i just can't get over this amazing wedding i saw on multiply of Mr. and Mrs. Sebastian. Old Manila is love. definitely. i've been to Intramuros before. i can't seem to remember it now. field trip! rarrr

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movie marathon forever. i'm getting bored here. i wanna go out :(

Astrud Q. Malvar

Reflection Part

Given the task to meet and observe a family from the lower income class is something that I would remember forever. It was my first time to have this sort of immersion unlike others who have this kind of program in their high school. I didn’t know what to expect. I know it would be kind of awkward since I thought that we were about to observe something, like some sort of lab experiment. I wasn’t sure if it was a very good idea. I’m afraid I might offend them if I tell them that we were about to study their way of living and their stands on some issues. I didn’t know how to approach in such a way that I won’t insult their current state. I was very hesitant at the beginning.

On our way to the Concepcion residence, our chosen family’s house, I was a bit uneasy. It was a very different setting from the place where I grew up in. The typical scene in our subdivision was blank and quiet. There were no people in sight; the only time neighbors would get a chance to interact is through gatherings every Christmas or during activities such as dinner parties. In Krus na Ligas, neighbors get to see each other everyday. Almost everyone knows everyone, if not by name then they would at least know a neighbor by face. I was a stranger here and I knew they were observing me. This was the feeling I wouldn’t want to give the family we were about to visit.

On our first visit, I was a bit nervous. I was like stepping on something fragile and every word had to be chosen carefully. As we got closer to Ate Cristy, the mother in our chosen family, I felt relieved and a bit more confident. She was very welcoming and she understood what we were doing. She openly discussed the history of their family and she answered our every question. I noticed that she was a bit distant at times. I think she has many things in mind. The fact that we were bringing up some issues was kind of hard because in a way, we were reminding her of the realities in life.

One thing that struck me during our conversations was the fact she shared about marriage. It sounds cliché, but marriage is not a joke. It is something to be well thought of, something to be considered over and over again. She said she has no regrets in their marriage. She however shared her experience on the long tug-of-war between the wife and the mother-in-law. She said that marrying her husband also meant marrying the family of her husband. It was a package that was predetermined. I realized that you-and-me-against-the-world is not really applicable in the Filipino family setting. In our culture where close family ties is one trait Filipinos are best known for, it is an undeniable fact that one has to learn how to treat the family of their spouse.

She said that one determinant on deciding to get married is the financial capacity of the couple. It is not all about love and happiness. It is a bond that will branch out to many categories. Next to marriage is starting a family. Which means more expenses and more sacrifices to be done. I realized that I wouldn’t want to start a family unless I know that the future is clear for my children. I want to provide them with the best quality of life. I want to be ready for it, not just financially but also emotionally, and mentally. I don’t want to have doubts whether this decision is right and if I am ready to take on this new challenge. I also want to give them my full attention. Like what Ate Cristy said, she devoted her time on her children. She said she disciplined them and thought them values that she hoped would make them good citizens. I would love to do the same for my future family. I wouldn’t want to sacrifice quality time for my children just to make money for us to get by. I want to teach them things that should be thought at home such as values and manners.

Ate Cristy stressed on how important education is for their family. She said that it is a long term investment that would at least provide a better future for their children. All sacrifices are for them and their education. I realized how ungrateful I am before for having to spend my time studying. I was anxious to get out of school and get a job. Ate Cristy told us that finishing a degree would mean a lot once we enter the real world. Although sometimes the degree we finished may not be related to the job we find, the knowledge and experience gained during our stay in the university will be of great help.

Due to intense competition in finding a job, Ate Cristy learned to make money through contractual jobs and selling recyclable materials such as plastic bottles and old newspapers. The money she earns from these activities may not be enough to get them through each day, but it will be a big help. Filipinos are definitely madiskarte. I realized how important it is to have perseverance. I admire her for having the determination and not giving up. Some people may lose hope instantly at the thought of poverty. In her case, she was optimistic to move on and do what she can while she can. I want to have that kind of outlook in life. There are times that I feel like giving up because of trials. I realized how small and superficial my problems are compared to hers.

The family learning experience personally struck me and opened my eyes to the real world. There are many realizations and lessons this activity has given me. I was exposed to the current condition of our economy. Poverty is an issue that should be resolved as soon as possible. It is visible that there are more people in these kinds of community than in private subdivisions which mean that there are more people below the poverty line. Aside from this, there are many personal lessons that were imparted. These are some things that I would treasure and use forever.

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at syempre pinost ko.
oo na loser na ko. hehehe

you know how much i care for you
i'm falling for you :x

ugh. kaya lang... blahblahblah
pero ok lang. kasi :x:x:x

KASI NAMAN E!

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nababaliw na ko

ewan walalang
tinanong ko sa friend ko kung bakit walang nagkakagusto sa kin. tinanong ko kung panget ba ko? tapos sabi niya kasi daw masaya ako. tingin daw nila di sila kailangan. WEIRD.

pero sa totoo lang, di ko nga talaga kailangan. pero gusto ko ng love life! :) yung eeffort para icheck kung ayos lang ako or something. ganun ganun. hehe. syempre naman masaya yung may pagyayabang ka sa friends mo na si someone e may ginawang kasweetan kahit medyo corny minsan ayos lang! haha :P

wala lang. gusto ko lang ishare. hehe

sino si astro?
nakakaadik yun





ayieeeeeeeeeee <3

hindi talaga kita naiintindihan.
nakakainis ka.
ano ba? bakit bakit?
ugh. labo mo.

nako :(